I am fully and totally in Derby with drawl even though I can still watch games and help out my league its not the same as being a skating sweating functioning member of a team. I miss skating laps and even miss my not so fave coach. Worst of all I'm only 4 months pregnant which means I have on the best side at least 9 months before I will be back skating (this is a conservative estimate). Why so long? Well this is baby number 3, Yes 3! And I know that even thou I would like to imagine myself strapping on skates with baby 3 attached to my boob, I know this is unlikely. In reality I will be half dressed un showered smelling of puke. poop, sweat, and tears. Isn't it a nice picture? Hey don't judge I know what you derby girls smell like on your best day.
So all in all I miss Derby and I'm proud to say I do, it gives me comfort in knowing that it isn't some passing fad, Derby for Life.
HAHA and if you thought you were rid of me your not, tooo bad for you.
Monday, 12 November 2012
Sunday, 26 August 2012
I worte about Derby!!
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
Roses
My step daughters school does this thing its called a micro society every person has a job a place just like the real world but is run on things other then money they trade volunteer earn credits. This exists in the derby world as well, its own micro society. The problem with this is in the micro as each and every decision almost always always has a large ripple or wave extending to teams and leagues onto neighbouring leagues and so on.
When I started derby I had rose colored glasses everything was a perfectly bright shade of happy. Slowly or quickly sometimes the tint of the glass get scuffed and scratched and flakes. Leaving a your eyes bouncing between colorless and cheery.
I took on too much and gave too little. And that's what happens in life you get what you give and the same goes for derby. As much as its nice to be part of a micro society it is still governed by the laws of life.
So all in all I have learnt that to be better I have to give better and sometime that means letting go.
When I started derby I had rose colored glasses everything was a perfectly bright shade of happy. Slowly or quickly sometimes the tint of the glass get scuffed and scratched and flakes. Leaving a your eyes bouncing between colorless and cheery.
I took on too much and gave too little. And that's what happens in life you get what you give and the same goes for derby. As much as its nice to be part of a micro society it is still governed by the laws of life.
So all in all I have learnt that to be better I have to give better and sometime that means letting go.
Friday, 27 July 2012
Hitting a plateau
After benchmarks and scrimmages a couple games. Ive plateaued where do you go from there still being a rookie but not satisfied with where I am and intimidated by the only next step my league has to offer Ive found my self in blah.
What do I do? Put my big girl panties on and suck it the F up. So here I go Monday's Bells practice.
After benchmarks and scrimmages a couple games. Ive plateaued where do you go from there still being a rookie but not satisfied with where I am and intimidated by the only next step my league has to offer Ive found my self in blah.
What do I do? Put my big girl panties on and suck it the F up. So here I go Monday's Bells practice.
Wednesday, 18 April 2012
LOA
I know I have not posted in forever but I have recently become captain of the Nightshades among other things and have had next to no time to do anything else. I have much to write as great things have and are happening in my derby world right now and I will soon be making a few posts so keep an eye out.
Wednesday, 14 March 2012
Growing Pains
Fresh Rookie!
I'm a rookie but some how I don't find that properly describes the newness of my skills and experience in derby, some how stuck in limbo between fresh meat and rookies, Fresh Rookie. I don't have the best skills I need lots of practice on everything. I try my best to know my faults, I slow down your line, my arms flail and hit one of the best players in the face, I'm not speedy yet, I cant stop on a dime, I get confused in a pack and sometimes I let thru the wrong jammer but hey I'm learning.
The problem is that not everyone is accepting of my newness as I am and I can see that I am more a hazard to them then to others. I can see the frustration in their faces when they are asked to partner with me instead of their friend. Hey I don't necessarily want to partner with you but how will I learn other wise. I have a lot to learn trust me I know this and maybe you figure that I should be better then I am but you know what I'm trying. Up until yesterday I had never left a practise (not derby related) never sat out never gave up 95% of the time I am giving all of me learning to be a better player. I don't enjoy being the slowest or the clumsiest, I don't mean to cramp your style but we all have to start somewhere.
So this is what I ask let me try, teach me, be honest but be kind. Know that if you never let me make mistakes or try new things because your too concerned with winning this practice then I will never learn because like it or not losing and making mistakes is part of how people learn. Give me a break or actually don't give me a break because I want to try everything, I may fail and need more time before I try again but I cant know unless you give me a chance. And maybe if you take a moment you might learn something from me I'm not sure what but you might.
Just so you know I go to practice to improve my skills not to prove them. I will continue to try, to learn, to get better and like it or not one day you will be playing beside me and you can either be part of getting me there or not, either way I will get there! But for now I'm going to suck and I'm going to suck for a long while, I'm going to be a pain in the ass I'm going to ask lots of questions and will need things explained over and over and over, so get used to it because I'm not going anywhere.
I'm a rookie but some how I don't find that properly describes the newness of my skills and experience in derby, some how stuck in limbo between fresh meat and rookies, Fresh Rookie. I don't have the best skills I need lots of practice on everything. I try my best to know my faults, I slow down your line, my arms flail and hit one of the best players in the face, I'm not speedy yet, I cant stop on a dime, I get confused in a pack and sometimes I let thru the wrong jammer but hey I'm learning.
The problem is that not everyone is accepting of my newness as I am and I can see that I am more a hazard to them then to others. I can see the frustration in their faces when they are asked to partner with me instead of their friend. Hey I don't necessarily want to partner with you but how will I learn other wise. I have a lot to learn trust me I know this and maybe you figure that I should be better then I am but you know what I'm trying. Up until yesterday I had never left a practise (not derby related) never sat out never gave up 95% of the time I am giving all of me learning to be a better player. I don't enjoy being the slowest or the clumsiest, I don't mean to cramp your style but we all have to start somewhere.
So this is what I ask let me try, teach me, be honest but be kind. Know that if you never let me make mistakes or try new things because your too concerned with winning this practice then I will never learn because like it or not losing and making mistakes is part of how people learn. Give me a break or actually don't give me a break because I want to try everything, I may fail and need more time before I try again but I cant know unless you give me a chance. And maybe if you take a moment you might learn something from me I'm not sure what but you might.
Just so you know I go to practice to improve my skills not to prove them. I will continue to try, to learn, to get better and like it or not one day you will be playing beside me and you can either be part of getting me there or not, either way I will get there! But for now I'm going to suck and I'm going to suck for a long while, I'm going to be a pain in the ass I'm going to ask lots of questions and will need things explained over and over and over, so get used to it because I'm not going anywhere.
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