If there was a postion it would be FIRST!!!

Recently it was questioned if I was putting roller derby before my kids. This question is absurd, of course I'm not putting derby before my kids. I am insulted at the fact that someone would even question or rate the position of which I hold my kids.

I love roller derby it makes me happy for many reasons I get to hit people and its allowed hell it's encouraged perfect for a sometime rage-aholic like me, I also get some exercise, adult conversation, and time away from my kids! That's right I said it I enjoy something partly because it doesn't involve my kids and I'm not ashamed to admit it!!!

All the Reasons derby makes me a better mom:
1. I get to release pent up energy, anger, profanity
2. Time away makes going home so much more enjoyable
3. Even if I was to go to every practise it would still only take up 8-10 hours a week
4. Increased energy, motivation, and satisfaction in everything

All the reasons derby makes my kids better kids:
1. They learn that sports are healthy part of life
2. They learn Independence from mom
3. They have gained valuable bonds with family
4. They have a greater appreciation for moms crazy dancing and strange bedtime stories

All in all this is how I feel after a combined time of  16 1/2 months of pregnancy 74 1/2 hours of
labour 18 months breastfeeding and 3+ years of almost complete devotion and mostly good decisions I am entitled to a little time to my self and in that time I am going to do derby.

Further more its delusional of any person to even think that my children can be placed on any type of scale there is no corresponding number, letter or symbol to place in conjunction with my kids. My love has no beginning, my love has no end, no top or bottom, my love won't end.

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And just one more rant. When you spend hours pushing my kids out your vagina feel free to make decisions on how, and who with their time is best spent.

Lets try this again.

I am now a Benchmarked Skater. What that means is that I have passed a series of skill tests which assess whether I posses enough knowledge and control to not be a danger to myself and mostly to others. It also means I am now allowed to attend league practises along with all team practises if I wish.

Before attending my first league practise I said (after freshly benchmarking) that "I would really test myself and attend all practises in hopes of having a better chance of playing a game in the near future." HA. I retracted that statement. I am NOT ready to attend any team practises and surely not a bout, I am a DANGER!!! To myself, to others I grab peoples clothes, in the pack I can not stop in any less then 1/4 of the track length leading to stopping via. buster butt in the face, I am admittedly very elbows. I need practise lots of it!!

Like an elbow to the nose I am shocked into the facts that I am not ready for much. I need work, work on everything. I feel slightly un prepared for my new position as rookie. Now don't get me wrong I have learned lots in my days as fresh meat and the people who have helped me get this far I am truly grateful for but the fact of the matter is I still have lots to learn and the people that I thought I would now skate beside will still be skating in front or behind me yelling at me correcting my freshly learned skills.

I am a Rookie and that's Okay as long as I'm still something. I do miss having someone sign my attendance.

For All The Sparkle

Sometimes things seem to lose their sparkle. Then you start hitting and realise that the sparkle wasn't gone it had just settled, there all along just waiting to be stirred up by a little smashy smashy.

I haven't been keeping with this blog for a multitude of reasons but the ones related to derby are the fact that I had gotten a bit lost forgotten maybe what first brought me in the doors of the roller dome I couldn't remember why I wanted to skate in circles knee dropping and T-stopping 3 different ways in hope of satisfying the coaches concerns of me doing it correctly in order to benchmark. Why did I want to push my body and brain to do these things?

And then it happened Hitting! And mini Jamming! And practise Scrimmaging! Like a swift skate to the face the glitter of it all came back I WANT TO HIT PEOPLE WHO WANT TO HIT ME and then SMILE.

So I'm back , and like Ginger told me Zero to Fabulous at the speed of Glitter

Fresh Meat Hero

 Today is about giving credit where its due. This is about Malady she is for those who don't know the fresh meat coordinator. And I am so grateful for her today and many days since I joined roller derby but it wasn't until recently that I really understood and appreciated all the time and effort she has put into making me a successful skater and league member.  Malady has a million plus things she has committed to from having a family, home business, being a Nightshades member, board member among others and, yet some how she finds the drive to coordinate guest coaches, create lesson plans, rally senior skaters as helpers, all in order to help a group of people become awesome roller derbyers.

So I would just like to thank Malady for all that you have done and do still. All your effort and time is not un noticed i am so grateful to have this opportunity to be apart of Roller Derby it really has been a awesome experience, and without you I'm not sure if I would have stuck it out long enough to love it. You truly are what it means to BE derby.

 

picture thanx to theft from FB just one of the benifits of being my friend lol

Everything Goes

Picture day is is coming up and there is talk amongst us fresh meat about our derby names (which I already have) and our persona. The chance to create who or what want to be in the derby world. This could be many a different things but what I have found is I just end up being me, who I am. I'm not worrying about watching my language or if my pants match my top or if my hair is done right or anything superficial something that outside of the derby has become increasingly hard for me. As I have grown and realised the judgemental nature of society being who I am is a mix of what is me and what is acceptable. Derby as far as looks are considered anything goes red socks with green shorts(orange shorts with red shirt lol) short shorts , long pants, skirts, panties, rips, face paint, no paint, rainbows, black, and of course glitter. I feel freed by the chance to express my glitter covered purple wearing bright colour loving self. A relief really to just put on what makes me happy say whats on my mind even if it is just for 2 hours a week. Derby goes against the norm the socially acceptable and gives opportunity to those who would normally not be given a second glance. Derby is a glance at what the world should be accepting of others  and working together for one common goal.

But don't get me wrong there are some issues but that's a different story.

Just beause no one wants to listen

Skating around the track brings me back to so many good memories of days spent at Rollerland trying to be cool. It reminds me of when i got my first pair of roller skates its all I wanted and asked for ever sure to my moms dismay. My mother being a single mom with little help I don't know how she managed to do it but for my 13th birthday I got them my roller skates I was so happy ecstatic as I was now part of an elite group of people how frequented who rollerland who had their own skates. My skates didn't look much like the others(boy) who had their own which resembled if I remember correctly something like a derby boot. Mine where white with pink laces and white wheels which were hard and even on the wood floor of the rink very slippery thus they were never used a sad thing now that I look back. Hence forth I will not let this be with my new skates I am going to use them till the boots wear holes and the grommets are gone and can hold no laces (even if I do have better new and shiny pair for actually using) I love my skates they represent more then just the non optional piece of equipment they are the cultivation of a dream from then and from now.

              

I was so sad when they closed those gates to skates

This pretty much what my first pair looked like

and now

Awesomeness

Another fresh meat practise down. Let me tell you this was one great night. First I learnt awesome things. I got to block people I also got to learn how to escape a block. It was so rad I felt almost like a real derby girl. Then there was all the senior skaters that came to help lots of them and this is great you get tons of help, you also get a chance to witness the eminence talent and skill these skaters possess  I mean it is crazy the things these people are capable of making there bodies do on skates. They jumped over people, turned backwards, swerved, weaved, and scariest of all they throw their selves down in front a pack of skaters with only 6 weeks experience, now that mite just be pure craziness but I'm down with that. Anyways the point of all this is just to say thanks to all the people who take the time to come and help teach me how to bang, skate, a force my body into derby submission. So greatly appreciated.

                                              p.s. Im related to this guy how awesome is that!!